Liberation: My Quest to Find True Freedom

Father, what do i say when i know i'm following my own heart and not Yours? And what do I say when my heart is the one I want to follow? Yet there's still this ache within me that knows Your heart is the one who will make me fulfilled. Lord, your Kingdom requires sacrafices...radical sacrafices. And sometimes sacraficing my desires burns. It hurts. It tears me up.

Abba...I do not deserve to be Your child. I fear the decisions I make will only disappoint you.